Dead Expectations

A dollop of transparency over a huge cup of vulnerability later....... I have seen my BioDad. I was able to ask the questions that used to be hard and turned into cautious but, are now just unanswered. The change I have found came when I took away the expectations. I released rather at the prompting and encouraging of several who pour into me. We've seen eachother, we've establised a new connection, now to walk out this new dynamic and create new memories.

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