Inmypromise White

     There is an innate ability to blame others for our outcomes. This act is as old as Adam and Eve. The desire for what is appealing to the eye but, at what cost? The price of relationships, the price of time, the price of dignity, the price of energy. We have to take ownership of the consequence of our decisions. It is not my loved ones' fault my lights got turned off because they would not give me the money to pay my bill. It is my fault for not budgeting correctly. I believe it is an interesting conclusion when a person assumes the victim role and, blames others for their negative events. I am by no means losing sight of the importance of leaning on community in times of need. I value my tribe.        I too had to mature past this tendency to shift blame. We look at Jonathan and other leaders like him who made decisions that had unfavorable results. Saul was literally trying to kill David. Imagine having to choose between your b...

     When all else fails we look at the word of GOD for guidance. It is extremely important that we read it for ourselves. The imperativeness is because our life lessons have been taught and caught. In those moments of reflections we are able to decipher between the two categories. Our perception of GOD’s will, destiny, and life’s purpose are significantly impacted by the convergence of these factors. This is what I have learned about GOD’s will. We first look at the Word in the raw. All the commandments hang on these two commandments. “Love the LORD your God with all your heart mind and strength. Love your neighbor as you love yourself.” Matthew 22:37 The foundational ways to know GOD’s way are to look at HIS word and, spend time with Holy Spirit. If I am being honest the times when I am pondering great decision are when I question GOD’s will for my life.        It is usually the smaller choices. In my process I learned than my tho...

“And you will know the truth, the truth will set you free.” Over and over again I hear parents share their understanding of GOD the parent is expanded once they become parents. The ultimate image of unconditional love. There is the ability to know; then there is the ability to communicate. Possessing the words and, language to convey message. I have known a truth in my heart of hearts for years. That truth is that i love my neighbor as i desire to be loved. Not, as i love myself; because evidence proves I don’t know how to love myself. It would be a false truth to say I don’t love myself. I just don’t appreciate myself the way I should given the nature of our relationship. I am not alone in this disconnection. Described by Ian Cron and Suzanne Stabile as “The Helper,” in the Road Back to You. This truth brought me encouragement knowing that I am not alone in this transition. Hopefully, spilling my heart on the page will encourage someone else. Now, with this new found re...

As strong as our walls may appear to be; there are powers that would challenge them. Ways we try to protect our hearts that usually prove to be unsuccessful, yet we try. I have been a member of the church since I was a child. I blindly and boldly followed those who led me. As I matured in age and faith I learned to separate the truth of the Word from the chaff of personal preference, systemic practices, and cultural influenced evolution. Eventually, like scales falling from my eyes another realm was reached. Taken captive by the truly evident freedom of spiritual awakening that I experienced at churches not bound by cultural oppression masked as depth of piety. This new platform was found in a predominantly white evangelical church. My faith was challenged by a doctrine that empowered me as a deity because Christ engrafted me. In contrast with the treatment of earthly vessels not worthy to be heard. The juxtapose position that I faced because my earthly temple was adorned in d...

     These days in education as teachers are hurrying about bustling from meeting to meeting and training to training; I am reminded of my new eyes as a first year teacher. The phrase “you don’t know what you don’t know,” was thrown around a lot. Meaning that even though one has the humility to ask for more guidance, clarity, or assistance there isn’t enough knowledge about the culture, process, or institution to know how to frame the question. When this comes to mind it is best to listen and learn through the process.        This new professional must give themselves some grace. I urge all those viewing these words to embrace the “you don’t know what you don’t know,” in their lives. I also applaud you for stepping into your new journey. I celebrate you for making it on to the other side of your struggle. Since I first started this entry I have transitioned from meeting with adults to classrooms full of students. The irony is they know ev...

     New beginnings are funny because they really help bring perspective. In my journey the concept of new beginning has taken on so many different forms. It has manifested in a new job, a new location, a new relationship, a new challenge, coming out of a storm; going in to the storms. Perhaps not going into storms of life? If yours are anything like mine. I’m usually moseying along in life, when like driving in to the rain progressively the storm unveils itself. However, if we are being objective storms are a new beginning. Torrential winds and all.        I have come to realize I clip my own wings when I align with fear, doubt, are the belief that because no one in my view has accomplished the dreams I see in my heart. It would not be so bad if it did not seem like circumstance did not amen those treacherous voices. For me that is when faith activates. Yes, I should thrive in this space. We all should dwell in the realm of knowing ....

    I once heard it explained that in order to understand the metaphors in the Word of God; we had to understand the examples that make up the metaphor itself. The metaphor that has been highlighted for me is season . The season that first comes to mind has to do with the passing of time. The manner by which we measure the slices of life we mold, our moments as they manifest. The promotions, the advancements, the new relationships, and triumphs. Accompanied by the losses, failures, pitstops, breaks ups, and mishaps that forge us like foliage outside of our windows. I think that we sometimes forget that seasons in nature are measured by a series of months.      This being the case, why do we panic when the months fly by in our painful seasons? The times when it seems like the season will never end. I have learned that the pleasant seasons are difficult to gauge because they are so satiable. Suddenly, the air becomes more aggressive. The tria...