Inmypromise White

     Change will not come if we wait for some other person or, if we wait for some other time. We are the ones we've been waiting for. We are the change that we seek. This need not to be misconstrued with the solution. We in and of ourselves are not the solutions because if we were? We would have different fruit around us. Better outcomes with spoils of the better choices we've made. Choices, that is what we have control over. We can choose to seek out healthy solutions. We can choose to cease nurturing unhealthy relationships. We can choose to believe the love of CHRIST is real.        We can choose to love ourselves in action and, in deed. I oftentimes stop in mid moment and ask myself, "Why am I doing this? Why did I do that? Where did the unction come from?" Like Paul I use my free will to do what I hate to do. Today, as I chose to not agree with fear I realized that I had to make a choice. In the midst of me calling in th...

     It seems over coming fear is an on going process. The point of graduation is when one decides to begin. Fear was not a part of our divine design but, it has been introduced through failure, disappointment, neglect, and deception. The sum total of these experiences throughout our lives have taught us that fear exists. There comes a point in our lives when we answer fears knock with a command to leave the safety of our threshold. For me this took place as an adult. Once I was big enough to take care of myself . Being able to protect myself from anything and anyone who could hurt me. Soon, I came to realize that even if I were a big girl now; somethings still intimidated me.        I had to rely on someone outside of myself. I had to have someone to appeal to about the things bigger than me. The older I got the bullies stop being human. The pressure of work, relationships, the impression of power people believe they weld. The...

     Life lessons are like high school. We have multiple professors and multiple exams. Two months of 2018 and two classes passed. (Not mastered 🙃). One has been repeated for years. There is not a doubt in my mind that as the year unfolds more lessons will continue to present themselves. The older I get; the more I realize my real eyes are just now being formed. I can use phrases like, "Keep on living" and "I ain't never" in the same exchange. Some lessons we learn to teach. Some lessons we learn from others. Some lessons we learn through experience; and some lessons are visual aids. Three dimensional caricatured parables acted out by surrendered servants for divine tutelage. We being human tend to be midway through our lessons before we decide to categorize it.        Perhaps in the cloak of darkness because our natural eyes see no sun, we assume the Son is also hidden? So, here I am in a moment of reflection breaking down these pa...

     Failures in life and relationships will take place but, I can always pick myself up again. I have noticed that my most drastic changes and advancements took place when I was angry about the situation I am in. The problem with this is that I usually needed to move forward prior to the catalyst kicked in. However, I wallowed in misery because I was comfortable. Not that the misery was pleasurable but, I had a strong tie to dysfunction. In this season of my life I am intentionally taking time to evaluate why I stay in situations long after I should have departed and, why I do not love myself enough to shift because it needs be done but, rather allow myself to be pushed out.         And one day she.... This time introspection has been rewarding and painful at the same time. Feeling the shift in to better while being unsettled. Like regaining my footing as the glacier beneath me moves. Yet, like that slab of ice the lies passed down lik...

     YOU never failed me yet... i fail YOU day by day.... minute by minute. Worship is a participation activity and, i need to sub out. The words cut my throat in route to my lips. Drowning in hypocrisy a float by grace. Ducking behind corners running from YOU while carrying YOU with me. Then, stings my heart, my SAVIOR calls to me. I keep picking up chains placing my arms in the sleeve. Like stay woke messages i have spent so much time in bondage it was my safe place. I am protected from joy and peace. Liberty dare not show her face. Out of chaos i emerge with the appearance of glee. Dawn break but, my morning joy is choked out by the pollution mincing the joy of my salvation. Remembering the days of our walks like mirages in this desert land.       If you are sitting on the lap of the LORD, wallowing in HIS perfect will these words very likely could have inspired visions of people you identify as being in a backslidden state. If you are sittin...

     The major events that Mary saw her SON do in the Bible were hid in her heart. I believe it is because she didn’t have a space or, a person with capacity to hold them. Perhaps there was someone to listen but, not truly appreciate them. Possibly there was someone to hear but, not leave without a nagging desire for the same experience. No person selfless enough to not compare notes as she spoke. It takes a specific intention of availability to provide space for someone to share the hidden experiences of their heart. A great vulnerability we are warned to guard well because of the life that pours from it. It is what comes out of a person’s mouth not, what is put in.       In such a selfish world very few people have an objective sounding board in the form of a person to share their passions, fears, hopes, and joys. In the event you have one. Don’t take them for granted but, most importantly don’t in trust their treasure chest of space more t...

     The innocence of childhood allows for the canvas to be revealed more clearly. "Out of the mouth of babes" yields more revelational wisdom than merely the words children speak. The very lives, essence, experiences, practices of children give insight and, change perspectives living life while in relationship with the Living GOD. See over yonder? The group of children playing a game of hide and seek. The sizes vary, skill sets range, but they have an agreement. Truths universally accepted collectively needing very little extended explanation. The goal is simple. Maneuver through the field and make it to base. There is safety, protection, immunity on base.        These evangelicalistic words spread in the current of the winds. Be it East or West Coast there is an assurance at your neighborhood playground base is safe. As these same children grow they realize sometimes during the maneuvers the desire to get caught arrives. The o...