Inmypromise White

     Have you experienced trauma in your childhood? How do you process those experiences? Have you processed those experiences? Did you develop coping skills as a child that you still utilize today? I have recently been charged the task to dream again. Like, a teacher with a pop quiz because you know the students have not studied; I was then challenged to think bigger. What does that look like? In this same season; Jackie Hill Perry challenged me to survey my heart as she deposited the revelation that all sin comes from unbelief . Currently, I am going through some transitions with my loved ones. On the road to resolution I was informed that I tend not to be as vulnerable as desired. Listening to the position that those who love us desire to carry us from time to time. In my introspection I have observed some idols fashioned because I did not believe that the LORD would comfort me. This stronghold in my life was developed in youth through emotional neglect. As mentioned

     We are a community of shortened phrases that tell a story empowering enough to move a person. We are reared by these colloquialisms and, have governed generations by them. The duality of the accountability. “Hold a good head.” “I see you!” “I got you.” "Put that on your Mama." "For the Culture!" “Fix your kitchen.” “Where you think you goin?” “Nah, we good.” “You good?” “What you not gone do.” “You were on my heart.” These same pressures are strong arms of encouragement. Snares of support. Loving you in a but, sieging exploration into foreign lands. There is very little room for evaluating the beauty that is multicultural outside of the diaspora. Better yet intermingled by the diaspora. Anyone with a touch of keystrokes can request the revocation of your Black Card without justification. Representation allows me to gain permission to accept the marginalized and rejected portions of myself. The uniquely human process of coming to

     There is an innate ability to blame others for our outcomes. This act is as old as Adam and Eve. The desire for what is appealing to the eye but, at what cost? The price of relationships, the price of time, the price of dignity, the price of energy. We have to take ownership of the consequence of our decisions. It is not my loved ones' fault my lights got turned off because they would not give me the money to pay my bill. It is my fault for not budgeting correctly. I believe it is an interesting conclusion when a person assumes the victim role and, blames others for their negative events. I am by no means losing sight of the importance of leaning on community in times of need. I value my tribe.        I too had to mature past this tendency to shift blame. We look at Jonathan and other leaders like him who made decisions that had unfavorable results. Saul was literally trying to kill David. Imagine having to choose between your best friend and your parent? Drama

     When all else fails we look at the word of GOD for guidance. It is extremely important that we read it for ourselves. The imperativeness is because our life lessons have been taught and caught. In those moments of reflections we are able to decipher between the two categories. Our perception of GOD’s will, destiny, and life’s purpose are significantly impacted by the convergence of these factors. This is what I have learned about GOD’s will. We first look at the Word in the raw. All the commandments hang on these two commandments. “Love the LORD your God with all your heart mind and strength. Love your neighbor as you love yourself.” Matthew 22:37 The foundational ways to know GOD’s way are to look at HIS word and, spend time with Holy Spirit. If I am being honest the times when I am pondering great decision are when I question GOD’s will for my life.        It is usually the smaller choices. In my process I learned than my thought process was formed by what I taugh

“And you will know the truth, the truth will set you free.” Over and over again I hear parents share their understanding of GOD the parent is expanded once they become parents. The ultimate image of unconditional love. There is the ability to know; then there is the ability to communicate. Possessing the words and, language to convey message. I have known a truth in my heart of hearts for years. That truth is that i love my neighbor as i desire to be loved. Not, as i love myself; because evidence proves I don’t know how to love myself. It would be a false truth to say I don’t love myself. I just don’t appreciate myself the way I should given the nature of our relationship. I am not alone in this disconnection. Described by Ian Cron and Suzanne Stabile as “The Helper,” in the Road Back to You. This truth brought me encouragement knowing that I am not alone in this transition. Hopefully, spilling my heart on the page will encourage someone else. Now, with this new found re

As strong as our walls may appear to be; there are powers that would challenge them. Ways we try to protect our hearts that usually prove to be unsuccessful, yet we try. I have been a member of the church since I was a child. I blindly and boldly followed those who led me. As I matured in age and faith I learned to separate the truth of the Word from the chaff of personal preference, systemic practices, and cultural influenced evolution. Eventually, like scales falling from my eyes another realm was reached. Taken captive by the truly evident freedom of spiritual awakening that I experienced at churches not bound by cultural oppression masked as depth of piety. This new platform was found in a predominantly white evangelical church. My faith was challenged by a doctrine that empowered me as a deity because Christ engrafted me. In contrast with the treatment of earthly vessels not worthy to be heard. The juxtapose position that I faced because my earthly temple was adorned in d